Another story where I hope the statute of limitations has run out. When one looks at the core of my being, you will see that I am painfully shy. It is one reason why I have never married. I have loved girls from afar. Some of the time, they may have an inkling of my feelings, but not to the extent that I have for them. That is except for the 1st and 2nd grade. Those two girlfriends don't really count. In fact, when I left my 1st grade girlfriend for my 2nd grade one, my 1st grade girlfriend didn't speak to me anymore.
Moving on to high school, I met this girl who didn't go to my school. She was nice to me, which was something I lacked to have with other girls. She was also very pretty. I couldn't tell her how much I liked her because of my shyness, but I had butterflies in my stomach every time I thought about her. So, in order to get close to her, I would call her house on the phone. She would pick up and say hello. I would hang up without saying anything, but I heard her voice. It was nice. I would drive by her house many times with hopes I would see her. As time went on, we actually did go out a couple of times and still remain friends.
In college, I met this girl, and we became great friends. In the beginning of our friendship, she was dating someone else. She worked after school in Anderson, but she lived several miles out of town with her parents. I knew what her work schedule was, so I would run the few miles to catch a glimpse of her car, as he was driving home. It was very helpful to do this, because the run got me in great shape physically. Later, we became very good friends. Some might say lovers. If a couple of things hadn't happened, I could have married her. It wasn't meant to be. I did gain confidence with her, mainly thanks to my acting experience. I found I could be someone else with her despite my shyness.
Then came Fort Worth. I started liking this girl. She lived a few blocks from the seminary. Rather than walking the straight path to the mall, I would walk by her house. Sometimes she would see me, and I would make up an excuse that it was a quieter walk to the mall that way. She was kind of shy, too. We hit it off and became drinking buddies. We also worked together. I stayed out in Fort Worth an extra year after graduation, because I was in love. It was a love triangle. She also liked another guy at the same time who was kind of abusive to her. Life goes on, so I had to move back to South Carolina. One of the saddest days of my life.
In Columbia, there were two girls that had two things in common. They both were very creative, and they both lived several miles from me. I met them about ten years apart. During each relationship, I would drive by their houses a lot. I used up a lot of gas, but just to be close to them was enough for me. One of those two actually worked for me, and I would change her schedule so that she and I would work the same shifts.
I really don't think I was stalking these girls. I was obsessed with them. They made my life worth living. Except for the last two, we are still friends. I cherish that friendship.
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